I have been spending a lot of time in avoidance mode lately. I haven’t been engaging in activities that push me towards my goals. I hate to admit this, but I have only done the minimum, barely keeping up. I have been struggling to write on my blog, to get my thoughts onto paper. My mind is swirling with trapped words carried on by the twists and turns of my emotions. Struggling to express them makes me feel frustrated. I love creating positive inspiration and encouraging messages. They are part of who I am, and it brings me joy. However, my response to struggle and conflict is always to distance myself from it. I avoid meaningful actions and focus on distractions (inactions). Being stuck in this loop of avoidance reinforced my inner discord and made me question my ability to succeed.
Recently, I signed up for a Freelance Writing Bootcamp hosted by Rebecca L. Weber (www.FreelanceWriterBootcamp.com). It’s one of my new growth endeavors, and I am really enjoying it. I happen to be focusing on the Mindset Module this week. We learned about the importance of how our thoughts, actions, feelings, and results are all interconnected. This thought processing activity created an a-ha moment for me. Writing styles between a personal blog and pitch writing for a publication are very different. One is not like the other, but the bottom line is that learning something new and different scares me. This challenge made me feel like I needed to retreat. However, changing the way I think about writing and who I am writing for allows me to readjust my thoughts, feelings, and actions for each style and piece. Using the thought tools to find new ways to connect can lead to different yet successful results.
Here I am, acknowledging my insecurities and shortcomings in learning new things, ready to dig into more intentional action. I have made many changes in my life lately, from focusing on my health, reconnecting relationships, and exploring ways to find new meaning. I want to make a difference in this world, to make it a kinder, better, safer place. I am branching out to include new experiences and expand my growth opportunities (while I discontinued others that don’t serve me any longer). It’s an ongoing process. I realize that struggle and growth are a part of the journey. Following your heart is messy. The key to finding the way through is acknowledging it, being open-minded, readjusting perspectives, and always working forward.
Love and Positive Vibes,
Lisa I The Resilient Advocate